Dear Snodderly Yes, I have been riding the rollercoaster of emotions that many do here. I sometimes get panic attacks but this website has really good posts which help me. It is a struggle for me sometimes. I know my husband is depressed but I'll be darned if he'll admit it!
I have 4 kids, 2 D's age 20 and 21 soon to be 22. 2 S's age 31 and 18. My Daughters both know because the oldest one heard me having a breakdown of sorts in the wee hours crying to my husband not too long after finding out about the affair. My daughter happened to hear me when she came in late and told her sister. The boys do not know.
My oldest daughter takes a protective stance and watches my back, the other daughter sort of avoids the subject but once said she wouldn't put up with the way her dad was acting she would kick his butt out. There's anger there when she does look at things.
I have been excercising and have lost weight. My h used to comment that I needed to lose weight and now that I dropped bout 40lbs he hasn't commented too much until I asked him if he could tell, even though everyone else could. Right now he walks out of the room if I am dressing. I must be too tempting for him! HA!
I have made a few plans here and there but now I am trying to figure out what to do and maybe getting a job. Thats a big issue for the H. Wants me to work but he has always been a spender and has a good job. He has always kinda neglected certain bills til he got bugged with phone calls or I bugged him. I was taking a break from working outside the home for awhile after taking care of my mom before she died. I go to a family cottage (owned by my dad) And I go there with the kids, which I will this summer. I am looking to find some sort of hobby to get me out and meet new people so I'm not sittin and thinkin so much at home. I do have my faith and a good priest for guidance which has helped.
Like the Spelling Nazi's comment. Made me chuckle. Thanks for your comment Snodderly. I appreciate advice on here as I am new and feel confused for sure at times.
