UKVA, verab....thank your support and words. About to leave to the airport in a few hours and really feeling the physical anguish throughout me right now.

I just need to get through this. This first step.

I think I am really starting to understand how long and hard this road is going to be. Because honestly I feel like just running! But this will take seasons I realise. Not to fix the M necessarily ( if that even happens) but to fix me. To get through this wiser stronger better and happier.

The kids are excited to see daddy. So I will use that as my focus right now. To make sure I don't fall into my old habits of sulking, being a cow, or looking desperate and sad.

Thank you again. You are all in my heart. Talk to you soon.

TPS
Me: 44 H: 42
M14 T17
S10 D7
10/10 H moves out after death of his father-same month
21/04/12 H is 'DONE'
04/05/12 OW/PA confirmed (rumors from 2010)
July '14 H ends affair
May '15 H moves back home