Needing some guidance... 4

[reachingHigher]

Oh, jks, not the OW joining them! I'd be livid, not just sad!

I applaud you for not being angry at H! That must take an incredible amount of strength to feel sad and not angry! How could he!

Those family get togethers are the stuff our lives are made of. I wish I had those even now. I have my boys but we have no family nearby and few friends. That part is REALLY lonely.

I'm so sorry you have to put up with this.

Today when my H held me I ran my fingers through his hair. He loves that. I tried to memorize the feeling of him to remember tonight when he's gone. I don't think that's wrong to treasure who they are even if we have to try to detach. To love the way they smell, the way we fit together when they hug us, to thrill at the sound of their voice, it's the spark we have for them. And it's precious.

But you are the mother of his children!

I'm not good at advice or thought-provoking questions like a lot of the others here on the forum -- but you can have TONS of sympathy from me!!!!