BM, I am not at all concerned right now. According to him he had those feelings when he was here. He sure hid that well. Now he's happy. Eventually he won't be able to self medicate and will face all of the destruction. That's when I will be concerned. In the meantime, I continue to try to build a bridge with him, letting him know that he's still part of our family, etc. It's hard to do after all that he's done to me and the boys. I do hope that when the crash and burn phase happens, and it will, that he trusts me with his feelings in a way that he just couldn't before.