I am feeling hurt tonight. I guess here comes my emotions again. Nothing really of great significance happened today. I am just downright missing having my family together. Sunday nights were always our family time and now I spend those nights mostly by myself.

And don't get me wrong, I really do enjoy my time to myself but sometimes you just long to have your family by your side. I long for that feeling of being close with someone like I was with my H. I know my kids want us back together so much and I'm realizing now, that I don't NEED H in my life... I just want him in my life.

I still have a long road of trying to detach, I'm afraid. I love that I've been feeling better about myself and I know I'm capable of going forward without him. I mean, it's been 10 months without him and I'm still alive. However, having learned what I've learned, I would just love the opportunity to continue that growth with him.

I love these boards. They keep me sane. I have learned so much from reading everyone's stories. And I always appreciate the feedback. Thank you to everyone who gives me continued support.


Me: 32 H: 32
M 9 yrs
#1 D7 #2 S5 #3 D2
Bomb 8/12/11
H moved out 8/14/11
PA started w/H & OW in 1/12 - found out 3/24/12
Got my own place 8/25/12
H & OW move in together 9/15/12
Still married.