Well we went out to dinner and and it was nice. My husband talked a good deal about work and I listened and made some comments and complements but If I talked about me he wasn't real attentive but he heard me. Read the 37 rules so I won't talk about myself too much for now. I didn't get him a card for our anniversary because they were too mushy and I thought it wouldn't be helpful so I just made a toast with him. We then got a movie and watched it together and later I gave him a hug.
Today we went to his mom's. His dad died a year ago so we went to the cemetary to remember him. My husband told me he felt numb about that and I knew he wasn't comfortable with it. later his mom gave us an anniversary card and he said very little. I think being around his mom is hard cuz she doesn't know and guilt may be eating at him. Then his mom asked him to come and put his hand on mine to cut a cake she bought. He did that, but I think he was uncomfortable. He was driving very erratically after we went to the cemetary and on the way home. Starting and stopping hard and taking turns hard. 2 of our kids were with us and I made a comment and my daughter did to me later. On the way home I know he was in a hurry to see his pal at the bar to talk.
