I definitely think Chuck has a personality disorder. I was aware of his "problems" early on in our marriage - a ton of stuff. Somehow when you're in it - you can rationalize a lot of it. I was definitely trying to make it work and afraid of our marriage falling apart. But there were many, many things going on. Possible previous affairs (though I never really believed it), more than one suicide attempt, more than one breakdown, several threatening episodes (one which involved police), more than one arrest, a DUI (there should have been several), careless charge, some blackouts, and so much unexplained erratic behaviour. Looking back - I don't know how I did it. I know I "stuffed" a lot of it away and tried to reason it. I also felt I stayed with him for the kids. Big mistake!
Ashley posted something on FB today about looking for a new job so I PMd her and reminded her it wasn't a good thing to do that - her boss might not like it. She told me that he knew and that he supported her getting a job in her field. She's never really had that much respect for him but today she said "Yeah, he's more of a father to me than my MIA Dad".
I told her that I had heard from her dad and he was asking about Ryan but that I found it strange he never even asked what hospital he was in. She said that she just learned he lost his licence again and that something weird was going on. Brandon was going to phone him today. I asked her if he had not been able to drive since he got sick in Feb and she told me NO - that he found out on May 8 that he could not drive but she did not know why.
So - the good news is that he is more than 3 hours away with no licence. But I'm sad for my kids. Sad that I married a dickhead and that he is their father.
Ryan has been in great spirits. I'm sure it must feel 100% better not to have the skin issues he was dealing with. They have started to let him out of his room a bit and I have been paying for his PSWs to go in for 4 hours a day to supplement the time that I'm there.
So this week is starting better than last week. We shall see how it goes.
