OMG Zig this is your big breakthrough number whatever. Highlight this post. This is for you to look back and remember when you had this breakthrough.
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all this love that i want to give to h, which is unwanted by him right now - i need to direct towards MYSELF. I need that love much much more than anyone else does right now. it's so unlimited, love that is, that there will be plenty to go around when needed.
this is so beautiful. It's so true. we chase, we pursue, we beg, we plead and then we decide that we should turn it all in and nurture and love ourselves. I'm happy for you!
There is so much in our sitches that are similar. Hurts that we held onto, making moves to other countries away from our support network, things early in the relationship that we were never quite sure or happy about. I go back to that shakey feeling. I've had that nervous shakey feeling so much in my life and I'd just plow on. Now for the first time really ever I think, I have this inner calm. And I'm going to hold onto that.
In my case I unhappy about how something's started and I held onto that and waited for him to prove me wrong but my energy just made it a self fulfilling prophecy. Dunno it's a lot of food for thought.
I want to be calm and confident in anything I do. No urgency!
