thanks scared silly

so admitting and validating what h has been insisting on for so long - that could be seen as pursuing?

i guess i have messing up big time - all along. whenever i have come to some realization such as this one, i have let him know and apologized.

yes, you're right - the opportunity will come some day - and he will give it to me. until then, i should wait quietly.

thank you - it is enough, i realize, for now that i could write about it here.

and you're right - it will show in my actions - i should allow then to be the messenger, rather than my words right now.

i feel quiet and subdued and strangely at peace right now - no urgency to do any thing about it

thank you
zig

me 46 H 38
M10yrs T 11
S10
BD ow 8/11
h filed 9/25/12


"if i could define enlightenment briefly, i would say it is the quiet acceptance of what is"