Don't know if your are sleeping or just don't want to pick up the phone but I'll send you this email because I want to put my thoughts down.
What I told you last night are my true feelings and I'm still conflicted, but when D7 got up this morning she gave me a hug and said good morning daddy, I saw again how important you and her are to me. While the affair has hurt me and I know that our marriage was in danger way before the affair, I still think that we could work it out if we committed ourselves to our marriage. I understand that the hurt of the past has caused you to not be sure that we can survive and feel that it would be more of the same, but it still hurts that you would not take the chance on us. I understand your pain and hope that at some point you could talk to me so we can begin the healing, but until you are sure that you are willing to be with me and only me this cannot happen. I will not ask that you give me an answer by a certain date, but I think it would be best that I don't contact you until you do.
After I sent this email, it bother me because it made me look a little soft but I do want if possible to save our family, but conflicted that she is willing to leave me and D for a co-worker she has been with for a month.
I want to go dark now, but we where suppose to take D7 out tmw for a treat, and Im wondering if I should txt her to let her know that I still want het to come and spend time with D. Also, D birthday is a couple of weeks away and I of course want the W to work with me to make sure the day is special for her.
Going forward I'm going dim, will only reach out if it's about D or house bills.
M-41 W-41 D-7 M- 10yrs I still love you, but 4-25-12 Think she might have EA/PA 5-17-12 Confirmed PA 6-9-12
