Peringo, I hope that you are right. This is the man who I am still in love with. There's no reason to separate. All we need to do is adjust a little bit. It just seems like such a shame. I think back to how in love we were just a few short years ago. He was completely dedicated and devoted to me, and I don't believe that that can just CHANGE. How he can say he cares so much about me and wants the best for me. How does that make sense? The little notes he used to write, the trips we used to go on, the future we had planned with each other.
I am waiting for my mother to wake up so that we can go to dinner. I desperately want to contact my husband, so badly. My mother is convinced that he will change his mind when he sees me on Monday, but I know better. I am going to call the DB coach on Monday and do whatever I need to do so that my husband sees that I can change. I am tired of crying every day and thinking back to when our relationship was new and exciting.
There has to be more to it... my wife has treated me horribly, I still have lots of "spark" Most likely the spark has been directed at another... only explanation.
Me: 37 W:33 S: 2 M: 9/5/09 Suspected: 1/7/12 Confirmed: 2/10/12 Served: 3/29/12 W moved out 3/30/12 First court 5/17/12 HELP!
I don't think there is another person, because I don't see how there could be. He's always home. I've used his computer before and I've never found anything suspicious.
I think it's just built up resentment and I think we just haven't been there for each other, emotionally.
Yes, you feel devastated but that only means that you need to work twice as hard to feel better. Get out everyday and take a walk, read something uplifting, talk with friends.
Try to moderate your feelings about MC. Go into it with an open mind, no expectations. Listen and learn.
Let him see a different you at the appt tomorrow. Self-confident, in control. Not devastated, sad and whining. Be in control of your emotions.
This is hard work but you can do it.
Me 57/H 58 M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13
Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do. I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering. Caroline Myss
