In terms of being happy for the times we shared- that was IMO the best thing about asking my H to leave and detaching/ ending talks about the R. I was starting to believe all the things he was saying about how bad our R had been over the past 6+ years. Memory is a funny thing and obviously easily influenced. After stopping all the madness, I was able to remember our past the way it was for me, which was that we had a great R, he pushed me to do things I wouldn't have done- or maybe not pushed but supported me so I could, we went on awesome trips, I made so many good friends through him, etc etc. My counselor said it best, he was like a spinning top and I was watching and getting dizzy. Once I stopped watching I was able to straighten myself out.
Me-32 H-31 M-1yr, 9mos/T-6.5yrs No kids, 3 pets H estranged father passes away- 8/11 Bomb- 1/15/12 Began LRT- 4/1/12
