more journalling: So I read JKS's thread and she mentioned about rash decisions and being independent and it just made me remember the whole name of my thread!!! My point was not to look at things as obstacles but opportunities.
Money: I have a lot of options, not just moving. I am currently reviewing all my outgoings and looking at ways to save money. I have the gift of time...my lease isn't up tomorrow. I can explore, get informed, and make a good decision. I don't have to feel hopeless. This is an opportunity for me to not slip into victimhood and to make the best informed decision rather than feel as though I'm backed into a corner
H's money decisions: I have always been UNHAPPY with his decisions to let others help him out with money. Family members etc. He is repeating old patterns that ultimately make him feel bad inside. He felt insecure that I made more than him (not much) where she easily makes at least double. I don't think he's become okay with that. But how is this an opportunity for me? It's an opportunity be independent, to take pride in the fact that I am taking care of my responsibilities each moment. He never even balanced his books at his new place before thinking of jumping into hers. So FB may paint a picture of things I'd like to do...but at what price? I want to live with integrity and that includes financial independence.
Oh I haven't looked at his FB since we all had that talk a few days ago.
the event next weekend: how is that an opportunity to grow? I can resolve to live my life by not letting the fear of running into them stop me from doing what I want to do. I will look fabulous, have fun, and if I were to see them I will handle that with grace and poise, but I won't fear it happening. I won't hand over power. And I'll cross that bridge if I ever come to it.
