Needing some guidance... 4

[jks]

Nothing new going on here. H and I continue to text every once in a while about "business" matters only. He's always very nice.

When he got paid this last Thursday, I decided I wasn't going to ask him to transfer anything in to our joint acct. And he surprised me. He transferred a generous amount all on his own.

I have no idea what he's been doing, if he's been spending time with OW or not. I don't ask anymore and I don't want to know.

I feel like things are starting to change from within me. I can guarantee that a year ago I would never have been able to say "I like myself." But right now I really do. This is huge. I haven't felt this way about myself in a long time.

I'm realizing that taking my time with everything is actually really good for me. No more rash decisions. I'm seeing more and more that answers are coming to me little by little. This is a VERY gradual process. And for anyone thinking they just want a quick fix, you are in for a rude awakening. There is nothing quick about this.

However, this is probably the most I've ever grown and I am grateful for the experience everyday. I'm happy. I'm really happy.