Dear Cadet I wonder how to handle this constant fear that my h is still seeing that ow. I know there is nothing I can do about it and he says he is not. I have not asked him in weeks. I found a reciept for lunch and he paid for two people to eat, but it could have been a male friend. It was at a nice place too. I got some xanax for panic attacks which I have been having lately, but I can only take em at night cuz they make me tired.
Last night my husband talked to me in great detail about work problems and I just listened. I was glad that he talked to me and I got the gist of it (he is an engineer)and asked questions. He also talked about the work he's doing on his boat and said he wants to be by himself and maybe stay overnight on the boat like he did when he was young and life was simple.
After we talked and came in the house I gave him a hug and he was okay with it. Don't know if I should go dark because it might be like when I used to withdraw when I was hurt. But I do think I need to GAL. I have ADD and I get a little overwhelmed with where to start and what to do.
