Having been through this before, I know I am supposed to tell her I love her one time and no more. I know I am not supposed to beg and plead, that will not work.
WELL TODAY...she spoke of an errand she has to run tomorrow. I asked who she was going with and she didn't know. After some silence, she said, why, you want to go? This opened the door and I said I wanted to go.
I started to tell her why she was wrong in what she was doing, why she shouldn't, etc. etc. etc. THEN I STOPPED MYSELF. I said: I don't want this. I don't want divorce. Trying again may be difficult and painful, but divorce is guaranteed to be difficult and painful. There are a lot of reasons to try, from us, to our sons, to our family. I described a moment we had after watching a movie a couple of weeks ago where she cried and told me she was glad I stayed with her, she said she loved me and was sorry for things she did in the past. I told her I look back and know she loves me as that was real and unsolicited.
Now, I feel stronger. I know she heard me. I said how I feel. There is no way she has any doubt about my feelings. Now I can set back, work on my 180's, and try to appear happy and confident. I know if she moves out next week, then I am going to fall pretty far again but I am prepared.
