That is beautifully written, Bustingout, and is exactly how I feel too.
I can't help but believe that the person we loved so much is still in there somewhere in both of our S's. I know it was real and it sounds like you feel the same.
I hope your H comes home, to himself, to his family and to his best friend.
Me(f): 51 W: 41 DP:8 M:3 T:10 "W not happy" 7/11 D final: 8/13