you are doing so well, busting out! i am glad that you are able to enjoy your children and friends. i knew it was a big growth step for me when i could more fully enjoy some of those things again.
your thoughts about building your dream house really resonate with me. i have been slowly picking out new art, furniture, bedspreads, vases, etc to make my home feel better again. it has really helped me to make it more mine. my W's art studio was in the garage and a friend helped me rearrange it into a work out space.
i have felt that same fear about letting go completely but did not realize it until you said it. i will be thinking about that fear and trying to understand it more. thank you for the awareness.
i will be thinking about you during your holiday and wishing you well.
Me(f): 51 W: 41 DP:8 M:3 T:10 "W not happy" 7/11 D final: 8/13