I was re reading through my thread and realise that the advice from all of you is so precious. I think at first we can't really absorb what is being said to us. It takes some time for emotions to settle

And then we can really appreciate what we are being said.

What great wisdom and insight that we are given here. It has brought so much calm to my inner self.

I don't know what is going to happen. But I feel I am learning how to have more control over whatever is in my path unknown. And I have my children, my friends and my family along the way.

I would do anything to have my H be a part of is journey. But his path is not connected to mine no more. For now. Thats where we are TODAY.

LITB the fear is hard to let go of.

But I force myself to focus on today.

My children are beautiful ( thank you God) and they are happy. We make each other laugh.

Maybe one day someone will like to be a part of this beauty I am enveloped in. Maybe not. But I am always in it. So why not be grateful for that?

TPS
Me: 44 H: 42
M14 T17
S10 D7
10/10 H moves out after death of his father-same month
21/04/12 H is 'DONE'
04/05/12 OW/PA confirmed (rumors from 2010)
July '14 H ends affair
May '15 H moves back home