Now you know the trigger for the roller coaster, you can avoid it in the future.
Well, that's mighty optimistic of you.
Yeah, a card is certainly an option. I realized that I feel completely stuck about the birthday decision, like there's no good answer and I'm stressing about finding one. Trying to squirm out from under the burden of this impossible decision. I wrote about another instance of that feeling a few pages back. And I'm feeling a bit of it when I think about some aspects of the winter gig.
I've realized that this stuck feeling is an old one. I'm starting to get enough perspective so that I can recognize it and realize that my associated feelings of helplessness aren't necessary. I still have no idea what I'm going to do about P's birthday, but I now trust that I can feel centered and strong as I outsmart the obstacles to figuring it out.
P has never been one for surprises. She usually asks what people want and makes arrangements well in advance, saying, "I've decided to get you X for the holiday next month. How does that sound?" So, one option would be for me to ask her what she wants. Her answer would likely indicate exactly where she is on the guilt scale. Always good to know...
