journalling Had a strange day I suppose. I woke up day 2 or 3 of sleeping well. I really think changing my routines to thinking of how I gave love, and what I'm thankful for really helps.
It was MIL's bday. I texted her and she and I chatted a bit. That was nice lately I've been missing her friendship.
I spent the day NOT thinking about H and it was good. I felt really calm and good. In the afternoon I was a bit shakey. Possibly because I hadn't eaten much and was super hungry and couldn't wait to get home. And it was raining non stop. And now that I know she lives in the city where I work I don't know my thoughts were shifting to that. And if they'd be going out to dinner with MIL tonight. Just felt a bit sorry for myself because of financial issues etc.
Happily once I got home and demolished a sandwich and watched a movie I was able to push all that out of mind. I am feeling like a huge huge massive shift from this time last week and certainly the week before.
