Woot!!! I got the 4 whistle award! Thanks Starsky! I am slowly getting there.
A friend pointed out that I have not given myself permission to be in charge, of me, my life, my kids lives. I have let him do it for so very long and I need to shift my thinking and quickly. So at times I may slip but I love this new found knowledge that I should have had all along
So to take a small page from Valeska, I have some very positive things coming from this that I am proud of.
-I have gotten so much closer with my bio family. I repaired a relationship that was long damaged with my father, which in turn brought me closer to one of my brothers.
-My boys and I laugh so very much. They had me in stitches just a few minutes ago and said "mom what would you do without us".
-I just signed up for a yoga class AND a zumba class with two of my girlfriends.
-For my birthday I was abundantly surrounded with love from all sides. I received 4 flower deliveries from girlfriends, a fruit basket, a wine basket and a ton of cards. I was seriously overwhelmed and really know that I am loved. I was told by them that you 'get back what you give' and that I have always been a wonderful friend to them and now its my turn to receive. WOW!!
And thank you to Val for starting that gratitude moment
Well-played, Autumn!!! 
Thanks Starsky! I am slowly getting there. 
