Nearing the end of this chapter of my life. I can't believe the journey I have been on in the past 20 months.
Some reflection happened today so I thought I would start this thread with it.
I'm on a film starring Eliza Dushku (Faith from Buffy the Vampire Slayer) and although my job requires me to deal with actors.. I had the pleasure of spending 30 mins with her as we both had to go through make-up.
We chatted about life a little.. fedoras, family, tattoos. Nothing big but I couldn't help but smile. Here I was sitting next to the woman who I loved to watch in high school.
(I gotta thing for kick ass girls)
I became very overwhelmed with gratitude. So thankful because although I don't know God's plan.. I don't know if I would have been sitting next to her if I hadn't have experienced this divorce.
It breaks down pretty simply.
Wife says I'm negative -> I Start Working on it -> Val becomes a more positive person -> People want to be around positive people -> Val get more work.
It has been life changing for me... and although I get sad (and some times angry) that it didn't change my sitch....
... I can not suppress the overwhelming joy I feel as well.
And I admit.. it's kinda weird feeling happiness from a very sad situation.
BUT
In my separation, I have mended a relationship with both my mom and my sister
In my separation, my career has taken a huge step forward
In my separation, I have learned what friendship is and have built ones that will last a lifetime
In my separation, I am learning what love really is.
In my separation, I am learning that life isn't determined by a single action.. but over several consistent ones built over time..
.. so you better make them good ones.
and In my separation, I am learning that I don't know have to know the master plan... only that I have to believe that it' the best one for me.
It's been a crazy 20 months... but I don't think I would change a single thing....
.. so maybe I'm a little crazy myself.. because sometimes I want to email my w and thank her!
M(f): 40 D'ed: 8/12
Show empathy when there's pain. Show grace when warranted. Kindness in the midst of anger. Faith in the face of fear.
