I too find myself in a similar situation. But my W would rather divorce me than tell me the truth. Why do I want a M with a woman like that. Even my own son asks me that. I wanted to make M work. I almost hired a PI, but then thought "you dont do that to someone you love". I know its going to be tough for a while but I guess I just need to let her go. Abbey, dont become a doormat like I did. There must be something better out there for us. After 29 years I dont relish the thought of starting over or losing all my dreams. Unfortunately not all situations on this blog have happy endings.