Cant get DB at moment because of $$ issues, but I have ordered both DR and DB and they should be here sometime next week.
Starting last week I have started to detach I don't call her and only txt if it's about our D. I have started my GAL going to the gym when I can and I have lost 25lbs. It's just that even at the gym, I still can't stop thinking of my sitch. I really need to work on my eating, I usually only eat one meal a day and sleep about 4hrs a day, but the worst thing I started smoking again.
Whats really killing me is that I want a family, but I also now think do I want a W that would be with another man.
It's hard.
Tonight she said she would go to MC, but leaves for the rest of the week and in my mind she is with the OM.
M-41 W-41 D-7 M- 10yrs I still love you, but 4-25-12 Think she might have EA/PA 5-17-12 Confirmed PA 6-9-12
