I ended up texting him back and said that's fine. what time? He said about 6:30 which is I guess is good because it means he isn't just stopping off between work and going to her place.
But then I had a big think about it and realized that this doesn't have anything to do with him. My boundries...are trying to manipulate. And that I should see this an opportunity, to let go of my resentment and anger (because it's only based in the fact that he's not doing what I want...which is no reason to be angry) So I stopped thinking about what he will think if I agree, or if I'm not busy or whatever and instead made myself the main character and thought what will this do for me:
*I can use this as an opptunity to practice grace, forgivess, and love
I read something on Oprah's website (don't laugh) the author wrote Prince Harming I think. Anyway she said that she let go of all the anger and hate she had for her ex-bf and was thankful for the lessons she learned. She even changed him name in her phone to TEACHER.
That really made me think about my dealings with H. Instead of getting upset at his actions, reacting to him out of what I think he deserves based on his current actions, I just thought in this moment what can I learn, how can I grow. So I'm not even thinking about seeing him tonight in terms of how he'll think of me and what I can project I'm just thinking how can I grow? how is this an opportunity for me!
