I've been feeling good. I'm starting to slowly see why things have happened the way they have. I need to be a strong, independent woman who likes who she is before I can be a good wife to any man. I really am starting to embrace who I am. It's such a sense of peace.
Recently, I have been talking with that other guy more and more and I was coming to realize that it was starting to feel like a R. He was sending me messages everyday, asking me what I was up to and how my day was and always wanting to do things with me. He would make comments like "if you were single, I would totally hit on you." And he told me that if I did get divorced he didn't think it would be long before I found someone else.
And here I am telling him about my H and what's going on and he continually tells me that I should just end it. Well, I wonder why he thinks that...
I sent him a message today that I couldn't do what I was doing anymore. I had to be true to myself. I felt like by hanging out with him I was being a hypocrite and I realize now that I don't want to put myself in any kind of situation that could potentially get really complicated. My life is complicated enough.
He was very nice and cordial and wished me the best. I felt like I had the biggest weight lifted off my shoulders. I'm really starting to do things for me and it feels really good.
Me: 32 H: 32 M 9 yrs #1 D7 #2 S5 #3 D2 Bomb 8/12/11 H moved out 8/14/11 PA started w/H & OW in 1/12 - found out 3/24/12 Got my own place 8/25/12 H & OW move in together 9/15/12 Still married.
