recruited a friend of mine to look help me "shake up my style" she's really into fashion so she's loving it.
I spent tonight window shopping online.
I'm thankful for good friends, an interesting documentary I watched that made me think about humanity and art, S who volunteered to go to the store in the rain, my dog who makes me smile, and a cozy home.
Today I gave love by finding beauty in my surroundings something I haven't done recently, going above and beyond in my job, telling a friend that I'm looking forward to seeing them and was excited to work with them soon, taking the time to actually talk to someone when they were opening up to me rather than just smile/nod/shuffle on about my day, be appreciative and responsive to S when he asked about my day and showed me funny things on his comp.
I am already feeling more relaxed. I think I will sleep good tonight. I'm making plans for the next few weeks and I'm genuinely excited about them. Not in a "see I have stuff going on too" or "good because sitting around the house makes me depressed" I'm finding the joy in my time at home, I'm appreciating my down time now. I'm looking forward to upcoming events because I'll be happy to see friends and go to new experiences.
There were a few things that I always wanted to do ((events i wanted to go to)) that H thought wasn't his scene. And I can't wait to do them. I think he covered up his insecurities a lot of time by saying he was too good to do this or that when really he was intimidated....well I'm not. I'm going to enjoy myself. I felt that way at something I went to last weekend. I thought he would have laughed at this if I'd suggested it! And he used to do the same about something else that I did recently and I really enjoyed myself.
