All good points, thanks. The nervous breakdown comment was to differentiate from a true medical/psychological diagnosis, but your point is well taken. Ealrier in our problems I did want her to "just get over it" but I know now it does not happen that way. Not sure how it does happen to be honest. I am fixing my stuff, its a work in progress, I have good days and bad. The final paragraph is bang on, and as MWD says I am working on profound changes that will make me a better person, and I know it is for me and my kids.
Still, have the immediate problem of how to deal with summer. Being the analytical person that I am, I could not resist looking at what the impact would be. Roughly 17 days that neither child would have access to me, and no more than 5 in a row. Seems manageable. The 5 is when my W takes them to upstate NY for family reunion. I have trip to FL with daughter, WV with my son (both 4 days) then trip to the beach with both (5 days) so those will be fun trips. Maybe I am making something out of nothing. I was determined to get back in the family home full time, but do not want this thing going to family court. She just might do that.
M 53, W 48 T 25, M 18 S 15, D 11 "I'me done!" 6/13/2010 Exit started 8/21/2011 ILYBNILWY W consults with L 9/2011, no papers filed Separated 1/16/2012
