This might be last chance??

[Drew]

She would be perfectly fine if she didn't even have to think about this situation again.

Assumption on your part. You do this a lot. Stop it.

I'm not going to try to figure out if it's because ...

Good. Can we call you out when you start doing this again?

... she feels guilty or really never loved me, but she truly walked away and does not even want to look back.

Assumption.

I feel that longer I go w/o communication w/ her, she continues to get farther away. I truly feel that she would be more comfortable and relieved if she didn't have to think about this situation again.

OK, for you to feel this way, but the funny thing in all this is that unless she feels that freedom, the situation will continue to spiral down. And it will all be your fault. In her eyes that is ...

this has nothing to do with patience...I've already gone 3 months and am willing to wait as long as it takes.

Three months? Seriously? PFFFTT, you're a piker. Do you know how long others on here have DB'ed? If you're not in this for the long haul, quit now.

But if I let things go completely, she will be gone.

Stealing a line from Bond ... rinse, repeat ....

The things I enjoyed, like spending time w/ family, yard work, fixing or building things around house have been taken away from me.

Stop being a victim. It's not helping you and it certainly isn't attractive to your wife. You're at your mother's right? I'm sure she could use a hand with something.

Look, I'm not trying to be hard on you. Well, yeah I am, because you're not listening. Trust me, we'll ALL been where you are now. Stop mindreading and assuming, and just once, ONCE, stop being so self-centered and look at things from her point of view.