Last Resort Technique - Can I correct problems?

[LostIn407]

The days my W has the Ds and I am free to do what I want, I have no problems. I can fill my day with GAL activities and have no urge to contact the W.

The problem is when it is my day with the Ds. I can't seem to get any GAL done. I can't goto the gym before work because my Ds are freaks of nature and like to wake-up at 6:30am. I don't want to goto the gym at 5am and risk them waking up and me not being there because D13 will not wake up in the morning to attend to them. I can't workout after work because childcare at the gym ends at 8:00pm. By the time I get home from work and make dinner, I won't have time to make it to the gym to get in a workout before childcare closes.

I can push them in the stroller while I rollerblade, but the W will want to join me.

I am definitely getting yanked around but I can't seem to detach. In a way, I think I subject myself to the pain of snooping so I can get angry at her. Anger makes it easier to get over someone.

I know what I HAVE to do, I just can't seem to do it. Maybe I am too scared of what will happen. If it was guaranteed that she would come to me if I detached completely, I would do it. I am too scared if I detach she will just accept it and it would be over.