Hi everyone, Thanks so much for your replies. My husband is 26. His mother and sister have been in contact with me, and they keep assuring me that he loves me more than anything and maybe is just panicking over the move in December. I'm not sure that I agree. To me, it feels like it is over for good.
Since I've been away, we've had some minor conversations. He texted me to tell me to have a safe flight, so I thanked him. I had spent two days in the city, so in response, he asked me how my trip was, so I told him that I had a fun time with my two friends. He told me that he had picked up the bed frame that we had bought to take to Australia with us, and naturally I was reading into this, but I realize I shouldn't. I told him I had to go on the plane and would talk to him soon.
Yesterday, he ordered something through my amazon account (because I get free shipping) so I forwarded him the order confirmation so that he could have the tracking information. He emailed me back to thank me and asked me how my trip with my parents was going, so I wrote back and said that I was having a great time and that I hoped he was well.
I've decided that I need to stop speaking with his mom and his sister, I think. I don't want him clouding his judgment. I know his mom has been encouraging him to go to counseling with me. I really hope he will come. I have NOT mentioned anything pertaining to our relationship. This is a big difference right now, because I did used to constantly nag him about talking about things. I hope he sees this as a change.
I read Divorce Remedy, but I am going to the library today to read DB and any other self-help books that I can. I have been very teary while I've been here, understandably, but I am going to look at schools here so at least I can have an idea as to what I'll do with myself if this doesn't work out.
This is so hard. I feel like the problems we had are fixable. I feel like we have both been able to identifying a lot of the underlying causes that brought us here, and I think that we can work on them. I found the counselor through my job's employee assistance program and they're supposed to call me tomorrow to give me the details; at that point I'll know if the counselor is pro-marriage.
I am worried about what I'll do when I get back. How I'll greet him when I get home. How we'll interact. What I'll say. I'm dreading it.
