Hospital told me yesterday that they don't plan to keep Ryan there long at all. And that maybe we should consider a short hospice stay in a nursing home for him. If he is released there (could be any day now) - they have to take him (my call to the nursing home didn't say that) - one floor is devoted to recovering hospital patients.
This is something new to me. He has always come home. Apparently they could keep him up to 6 or 8 weeks although it is not likely he would stay that long. The home is brand new and lovely - about half an hour from here (everything is half an hour away as we live rural now). I could visit daily (which I would) and they could take care of everything OR I could have my agency send in the girls for as many hours as I chose. (I would have to see how much care and interaction he was getting).
So - this is a big decision for me. It seems like an obvious decision aside from the fact that it is guilt ridden for me. It would also be fairly time consuming for me - going there daily but that's not the biggie. I worry about his happiness, his demeanour. I think I should visit there today as this may happen tomm or the next day. Although my daughter is visiting me until suppertime so between going to the hospital and going there - I get no time with her at all. And I have missed her!
I called the place yesterday to ask questions. The manager is calling me this morning. So we will see. I think that if his discharge is not imminent (as in today or tomorrow) - I might postpone my visit until tomm or I could go there after Ashley leaves around 5 today.
But what this decision WOULD do for me is buy me some time to figure my agency thing out. Time away gives me time to clear my head. Then I can make the decision about the agency and also about a new dr.
And I thought this summer was going to be easier...
