Bond, That is what I have been trying to say the whole time. She would be perfectly fine if she didn't even have to think about this situation again. I'm not going to try to figure out if it's because she feels guilty or really never loved me, but she truly walked away and does not even want to look back. I feel that longer I go w/o communication w/ her, she continues to get farther away. I truly feel that she would be more comfortable and relieved if she didn't have to think about this situation again. Even from things from her past, she runs away from any problems and doesn't address anything.
this has nothing to do with patience...I've already gone 3 months and am willing to wait as long as it takes. But if I let things go completely, she will be gone.
As far as doing things that make me happy, that is very difficult when the majority of those things revolved around my family. I'm not a bar person that likes spending nights out like that. The things I enjoyed, like spending time w/ family, yard work, fixing or building things around house have been taken away from me. Hunting season doesn't start for some time.
