Maggie thank you so much....you have really come a long way since I've "known" you I love your new attitude and being so positive. Thank you!
SS, it's hard I can't defriend him. I think that would be the old me. Plus we are mutual friends with my S and other family members. I don't want to play out my drama in front of them. Plus he's the one making himself look like an a$$. I have hidden him and I just need some self restraint to NOT look at his page. I thought about leaving FB, but that would be being a victim.
Dakota, he does enjoy some of those things or at least he did...I do think right now he doesn't have a project, he's in that honeymoon phase etc.
I woke up this morning and attempted the handyman project he was going to do. I'm not strong enough and there are screws sticking out but at least it's holding up. LOL!!! I'll get S to help me later. He's pretty strong.
The funny thing is it used to upset me when I'd think about how he was out going to places that he never went to with me while I wasn't GAL'ing. Truth is I'd had such a great weekend and last night I was cozy on my sofa with my dog completely happy to be doing nothing rather than worrying that I was missing out on life.
He says he doesn't know if he can get past my R with my coworker...I don't know if I can get past this. I can see more from his side of the fence. When he says who knows maybe in the future it's because the idea of me dating/sleeping with/going to Valentine's Dinner with another guy was too much for him to "get over" just like the idea of me "getting over" him moving in with a girl, taking her on exciting day trips, putting it on FB for all our friends and family to see is a bit too much for me right now.
I am being still as everyone says. This is me venting right now. I'm making no "knee-jerk" reactions as I'm prone to do...ie: text/phone/email him, say something about his FB activity for some other reason other than the pain it caused me, go on a date with someone, decide I'm done, delete my FB, delete him off my FB. About the biggest knee jerk I did was try a bit of DIY!
Who knows my inner decision that I'm done being a martyr and I'm not happy with his actions may just be the 180 that's needed to get him to take a second look....but I'm not doing it for that reason...and if it does that's when we have to have a million convos.
