I haven't posted in awhile. I've been doing more reading, reflection, praying while trying to make sense of it all. I did want to share an amazing book though. It's called The Broken American Male and, boy, have I learned a lot. It has really helped me connect the dots. I understand so much more about what happened to my husband and our marriage. I feel really bad about my failures as a wife, but also know I did the very best I could with the knowledge and experience I had. My eyes are wide open. If by some miracle my marriage gets a second chance there is so much I would do differently.