Aw thanks Vera....I read DB again and I don't know I feel like each time I have a mini revelation this part of me gets stronger and stronger. I do have good points and I'm working hard on the bad points.
I think in the past I've been approaching him with this sort of martyrdom/victim/guilt like I feel guilt or I feel like I'm pursuing or unwanted or bothering him in his new shiny life....It's not a matter of GAL in that sense it's just remembering. I was giving him all my power...when initially I was the one who decided he was happy being miserable and I wanted a bigger happier life.
I'm not running. I am 100% open to us working on issues. But I'm no longer approaching our friendship from a wounded position. I'm staying dark/dim/LRT but it will be a hell of a lot easier to Act as If and be happy when I see him because I'm so done.
He's been posting non stop on FB about eveything they do together....He stopped wanting to do ANYTHING go ANYWHERE when we were together. I don't know how else I can go on in my life waiting to get one text from him.
