One step closer to the edge and I'm about to break

[Fightfire00]

Wife called today to work out scheduling with the boys... wow, what a logistical nightmare... I'm not sure I'm going to be able to keep it all straight.. and no telling what it's going to do to the boys being constantly shuffled back and forth due to our conflicting schedules... I was able to keep the conversation light and about the boys, though, and ended the conversation first... I guess I'm on the way to detaching... I don't know... the thing is I know I was unhappy and was feeling neglected and unfulfilled before all this, so why am I trying so hard to get her to come back..? she is convinced our M was built on a broken foundation, because of my selfishness when we first got married and hasn't been able to let that go... We have had some good happy times since and I'm sure that if we rebuilt our relationship we could have them again... I will keep moving forward... I continue to pray and believe that God will fix this in time...