I have read your thread in its entirety. You have a really good grasp on DB'ing. You really do. Stay the course. It takes a lot of time and patience.
The common theme that I gather from reading your thread is FEAR.
I saved a post from Cat04 to Denver_2010 awhile back regarding fear. I think it is great food for thought.
Originally Posted By: Cat04
Originally Posted By: Denver_2010
I've identified a couple of issues that I am trying to address specifically. Control and Fear (which I believe is an outgrowth from my control issues).
Denver,
I want to suggest, your control issues stem from fear first.
Then additional fears result when you feel like you are not in control.
I heard somewhere once that "fear is the root of all evil".
While I can't remember where and that drives me nuts...
I do believe that it is true.
Fear leads to anger...
Fear leads to sadness...
Fear leads to regret...
Fear leads to extreme cautiousness...
Fear leads to bad behavior...
Fear leads to attempting to control situations so you don't feel the fear...
Fear will hold us back from our biggest dreams...
And so on...
Think about it.
Cat04
Me:45 ExW:48 M:04/97 3 Bombs & 2 ReCons 1st BD 11/10 D Finalized 4/20 D-16 S-14 Going in one more round when you don't think you can. That's what makes all the difference in life.~Rocky Balboa