I shut the door to the car and H was waiting behind me and said, "can I have a hug?"
I said, sure. It seemed like he held on longer than usual. And then when I pulled away he looked like his eyes were watery. I started to walk away and then said, "are you crying?"
I see a lot of myself in your sitch. I really need to read the whole thing and soak up other's advice.
but this jumped out at me. He always does this...even after the last bomb he gave me a BIG hug almost like he was holding me and kissed me on the cheek. It wasn't a "friendly" hug. I once told him he was giving me mixed messages.
