Hi Kat Yep - it's that dang 'oh good things happen, then I'll text/email/ talk too much' syndrome. Gah. I get so excited about things I have it pinned to my sleeve like 'see everyone!' Time to invoke some mystery and keep up my good changes and SHUT UP!
H popped over this morning while S5 and I were running at the track. S and I spent the morning with my mom and sister shopping, walking, and talking. So I got some good exercise in today - ran at the track, spent the day cleaning upstairs (really trying to make progress on this house selling thing) while H was downstairs. H made S and I dinner, and volunteered to drop us off a mile from the house on his way out tonight (S and I walk the dog every night).
I was in a great mood today, H seemed good, I left him alone to do whatever he was doing while I worked on my projects, and he sought me out. No forced interaction, and there was no negativity today. H actually initiated sex (physical need or mental, I'm not going to judge lol - for ONCE in the last 4 months I didn't need to initiate!)
It was cloudy and cool today (so much for almost summer?) but no rain! H's mood is turning, I can tell. He knows that I'm not staying here. He knows the logic, and he knows that I can't take another winter here, and definitely not 'his' winter, and that I'm going "with or without" him. I see he is watching me and waiting for my next move.
And my next move is... resting my tired legs now! No texts, no calls, no emails from me today! WOOT! I didn't even need to 'text' him some sort of message hoping for a reply as some sort of 'sign' of a confirmation of a good day as I've done before.
Tomorrow I continue on with the house, and get some studying in (I do have to attempt to get a new job at some point!). I have some new books to read too (meditation this time).
Me& h + S M: 13 t: 14
H moved 2/12. Own apt 05/12, EAs, PAs, gfriends, oh my! I'm done. 12/12
"I get knocked down, but I get up again.. you're never gonna keep me down" Chumbawumba
