One step closer to the edge and I'm about to break

[Fightfire00]

btw... dinner went fine... decided to leave wedding ring on... I'm still married, so not taking it off... kids monopolized the conversation, which was fine... I played it cool, smiled, kept conversation about the boys... helped load them up and said my goodbyes... this is my first night alone with them at her new apartment... and I have to say, it stinks... I worked off and on between playing with the boys on straightening up the house and getting it to look less like a bomb went off... found some old pictures to hang on the walls where she took pictures with her and even managed to grocery shop as a single person for the first time in a very long time... I continue to be amazed at the things that she left behind as well as the things she thought to take... weird... I'm doing my best to change those things that I'm able to, and accept those that I cannot...

again, I won't give up... I'll keep fighting the good fight... and I will continue to pray and believe that in time God will show me his plan for W and I...