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MWG,
You can look at this and realize you did your very best. My gosh, you have had tales of R and so on for so long. That is something that I have taken some comfort in--I did my best.

It does make a difference to be in a R where you feel wanted. You will not be sorry that you moved slowly.

Interestingly, your X is in a similar position to mine in terms of dealing with illness.

When all is said and done, I did want to be with X and it was a tremendous loss to me to have him gone from my life. But...bit by bit you pick up the pieces and move on. And you see where you were weak and naive

I am working at cultivating a spirit of gratitude for all that I have in my life now, and for all that I have been given. I was fortunate that I had good times with my X. I am also fortunate that he is gone.

As far as being wanted again by X, I don't think my X would ever admit that he made a mistake in leaving me and divorcing me.

I still feel that irritate him just by being myself.