Well I avoided the Witch all w/e. I replied to her asking me to clarify how 1 wanted to be billed (how about never) - told her that Josh and I had a very busy w/e and had not had a chance to review it. I would get back to her when we had a chance.
Ryan went into hospital today. He has not recovered from his admission of a month ago. Every day has been a challenge and I have done everything humanly possible to get to the bottom of it. He was in so much discomfort today - his dr and I agreed he needed to go back in. He looked so sad and so uncomfortable.
I had a meltdown this morning. Unusual for me. I cried my heart out. I even missed my Mom. As silly as it sounds - I told Josh I just wanted my Mom to bake me some chocolate chip cookies and serve them to me warm. I wanted the rest of my problems to magically disappear. I wish...
I made it clear to Ryan's worker today that I didn't want to talk to anyone (agency) so she spoke to them. They were helpful.
Josh was a Godsend as always - he stayed much longer (he goes home on Sundays) - drove me to hospital, dried my tears and researched Ry's illnesses on his phone. He also stayed and made me dinner.
My daughter decided to come tonight to visit. SHe will be here for 2 nights. I am happy about this - her boyfriend is coming too but they offered to help me with my beach.
Ryan's immune system is SHOT. He has been on 7 strong antibiotics in the past 5 months. He breaks our on different areas of his body every day. It is heartbreaking.
And that's my update. If they don't keep him in hospital till he is reasonably better this time - I might opt for hospice care for a short time when he is released - long enough to get hime to an easier care lever and long enough to give me time to sort out his care.
And that's my update. Daddy dearest is off in Russia on some kind of cloud without a thought about any of this. He knows "Barb will take care of it".
