i don't know if i felt tricked as much as woken up. i think part of me was still "day dreaming" that it wasn't as serious as i thought it was. though of course i don't know how serious or not serious it is - i don't know anything - and i needed to become more aware of that: i don't know anything, and it's okay not to know or know. the significant thing is what am i going to do with myself and how am i going to move forward.
it's odd you know - for the last couple of weeks h's horoscope kept saying "how much of something should you tell someone else - how much should you keep to yourself" i puzzled a bit over it, and figured it was probably a short trip - never occurred to me that she would be here for over a week.
oh well. my horoscope this morning said that the universe was going to give me a gentle kick in the a$$ to wake me up. figured it woke me up good - not in a harsh way but rather gently.
i know this sounds strange but i'm looking in my eyes and at my face in the mirror today - there's a new softness there that i have never seen before and much more sweetness. i've seen that relaxed lovely look on others - and i think it's part of the agape state - it's okay , i find myself thinking - everything is as it should be....
me 46 H 38 M10yrs T 11 S10 BD ow 8/11 h filed 9/25/12
"if i could define enlightenment briefly, i would say it is the quiet acceptance of what is"
