Well cue the circus music. When I was paying the phone bill I noticed he's decided to start texting the work whore again (any one who decides to mess with a married man is a whore, sorry, I don't make the rules). I think he's still having a fantasy relationship and/or EA with her, which she may not realize, which I only say because I have met her, a week before bomb drop, where I learned she has been scarred by her dad cheating on her mom for quite awhile and they didn't know about it, so she really (allegedly) doesn't like that behavior..... or maybe the apple doesn't fall far from the tree..... better get some popcorn and pull up my chair.....
Some days I would love to call everyone and be like what the hell is wrong with you?? are you so freaking blind you can't see he's totally lost his mind?!?! I know he's a good liar/actor, but really come on, get a freaking clue people. No, no need to worry I would never actually do that.
As for me, I will continue to shut both my doors, need to keep the separation from the crazy, it's too overwhelming, need my space so I don't lose my mind too..... It's all just a bit much right now with getting rid of a bunch of stuff I had kept for when we started our own family..... no need to keep all of that stuff since I don't know what is going to happen, but as for right now it's not looking so hot for the way I would like it to go.
....oh and I'm not sure how not staying in that hotel and driving back up there today was saving money.... especially when he took almost $300 out of the bank.... yeah, I looked, I can, technically it's my money too..... not that I see any of it..... I just wonder where all of this money keeps going....... Must be nice just to spend and spend and spend and not think anything of it, meanwhile I am just trying to pay the freaking bills..... grr..... Ok, I'm done whining. It's off to the gym I go!
