Not Being A Victim

[BklynMom]

The kids are with H this weekend. I usually have a hard time on these weekends alone. I can stay busy but its never busy enough from missing my girls. For some reason this weekend has been easier. Even though my H called this morning so my D2 could say she missed her mommy and wanted her mommy - still its been easier for me not to wallow in self pity.

I have felt grateful for everything I have and have not focused on what I dont have.

I have been inspired by LITB posts about stopping his D

I was struggling with my Al-anon program for a little while because I felt that it was preparing me for D and advocating D. This week I talked about my internal struggle with that at my meetings and it has really helped me.

I am feeling good and looking forward to my girls coming home tomorrow.

Be well. Believe!