One step closer to the edge and I'm about to break

[needgrace]

what I don't appreciate is that she internalized and "faked" it for years while never letting me know we were in trouble... I know in my HEART that this can be fixed but at this point, she refuses to talk to me about us...

Hi FF,

I'm sorry you are in this place.

She sounds like my W, or at least what she thinks she felt for many years. WAS's seem to reinvent history, and while it is frustrating, it leads nowhere to think about it (and believe me, i overanalyze everything...)

And knowing in your heart that it can be fixed.. I chased down this tunnel for a long time, thinking that I could convince my W to stop and work on things. It was cheeseless for me and pushed her further away.

I have not found what works for the M, but I can tell you mistakes I have made. I can also realized that I can just do my part, the rest is out of my hands. (I hated that, but I am getting better with it. I know that learning to let go will help me in every part and time of my present and future life.)

I have found what works for me and that is detaching and working on me. I do not have any idea if W will change, but I know that I will be a better person.

((( )))