Thanks NG. I do too to be honest.

Today actually, despite a work deadline looming, I am here because I need to refocus. I am tempted to backslide and text or call. I feel a little overwhelmed with the fallen wall, summer holidays approaching (which will be the first time i see him in over 2 months), the sitch in general and the possibility of another bomb.

BUT, he is not the one that will reassure me, or help me cope with th e realities.

Its all of you. So thank you.No backsliding....

time to focus on the reality of my WORK DEADLINE

see you all later.

TPS
Me: 44 H: 42
M14 T17
S10 D7
10/10 H moves out after death of his father-same month
21/04/12 H is 'DONE'
04/05/12 OW/PA confirmed (rumors from 2010)
July '14 H ends affair
May '15 H moves back home