stop it. you are starting to sound like me..lmao.. bitterness is part of this i think. for being left, for being mistreated. i know it hurts. find you center like you have done countless times. the pebble looks huge when you hold it up to your eye. set it down and its just a pebble. LBS were all WAS kind of at one time. we neglected our marriage in a similar manner to what they are doing now. just my take. you were able to get this far. are you going to quit now? i think i know the answer to that.